thanks mich.. im not as rational as you think i am. haha. anyway, i called colin this morning and told him how i felt.. he say he is going to think about it.. as in think about giving us another try.. rationally i can see where he is coming from.. dragging things out will be more painful for both parties.. that things will be difficult. that after breaking up not once but twice the scar will always be there. but i want to try. to say that as long as we care for each other and that we put in the effort we can make things w0rk. its the same theory... if a relationship ends up well and the couple end up marrying each other.. they would have to spend roughly 50 years of their together. spending more time, facing more problems, more new situations.. i dont think it is possible that two person would have the same ways of handling stuff all the time.. its constantly about compromising, changing and accepting. i really think that what makes a relationship w0rk is about commiting to it and sharing the same big goals and trying to make each other happy.. with time.. with enough shared experience and seeing what the other party did for you then parhaps will come love. haha. thats my rational justification. irrationally.. i just want to hang on to him because (most of the time) just seeing him makes me happy.. haha.. wish me luck! but no matter i will be fine.. 2 years down the road i will think that this is a kiddy problem!
